How did that guy from drew carey get his own talk show?....

well.....here i am...................still jobless.....very tired...........and i've scratched this stupid mosquito bit to the point that it was bleeding earlier..................not much else to say..............i've got an other poem thing for y'all...............i love skipping through time....it's kind of funny......it's kind of sad..........and it's definately odd to re-read these things.......but anyhow.....i guess like all other things it just is................

My Only Choice        05.16.05           00:21 hours

I died in my sleep last night
Drowned in a pool of water
    that consumed the world
All my friends and family escaped
It was just me
And the world
Alone to die

At first I thought to hold my breath
But I knew that was fatal
    just as well
Then al I could do was
Inhale the water
Let it fill my lungs
And take me away

I started to think of everyone
I was hoping they were thinking
    of me and all Id done
But eventually my thoughts
They came back
To the water
Slowly killing me

It choked my every breath
It took al my strength
    away, and left me to die
So thats what I did
Slowly
I died
And then I woke up.

An Attempt At Writing Pt. 01

here we go folks......i'm gonna start to write every week...or so i said....and i guess i've chosen monday.........so here's my attempt...i'm going to do this basically by giving y'all a couple of writing that i've done throughout my life.............i'm going with a more resent one first...but i will be jumping around in time throughout these releases...but i'm sure it'll make sense......eventually.........take care all........peace.
m.

Broken Cars For Broken Hearts       by, m      concept, LB     04/14/05

Driving in my Car
    It's a room inside a Room
Clear glass to watch the Viewers
    Of my unlocked mobile Cage
It's tough to get Old
    It's even tougher if you Don't

I'm contained in my Room
    I can just drive and Stare
Scribbles in my Head
    Yelling them onto Pavement
When getting old's all you can Do
    You have to wake up to It

My backseat's full of Memories
    My front seat's full of Tears
I'm drowning in my Mind
    And driving through my Life
The Older I feel the older I Get
    And most times I don't want to Feel

Rabbit holes turn to pot Holes
    Trafficking nature in my Mind
Everything around me is Dying
    And I can't catch Up
Of course getting older is Dying
    So it's good to be dead Today

I turn on the Headlights
    As I turn off my Mind
The cigarette ashes Out
    The viewers turn into Trees
I have all the time in the World
    It's too bad my world's out of Time


Those white and yellow Lines
    Pointing me toward my Fate
My room is closing In
    While the wind is breathing Hate

I can't control my Destiny
    But I can control the Wheel
So I cut every corner Closely
    And put my stamp on every Deal

There's nothing we can Do
    No place to catch our Breath
They'll have to pull me out of the Wreckage
    When I finally accept Death

Time Makes Fools Of Us All...

wow it's been a long time since i've bothered writing anything in this at all.........it's not even that i haven't bothered with it as that my life's been pretty hectick of late and it's been hard to find what part of it i was willing to type down........i was planning of doing this whole thing of every week posting a poem i either wrote a while ago...or even something i've wrote of recent date...but even that has really fallen by the waste side for now.......however for enyone who cares, i will be starting to do that soon......maybe next week or the week after........but i guess you'll know when you happen to come across my page and you notice that i've actually done something different to it...........but i guess here's the quick summery of what' happened since february: i almost bought the store i was working at; i went to two different cousins weddings, one in vegas and one in richmond; i went to my wife's grandfather's 90th b-day; went to my sister in-law's college graduation; my mom got fired from her job; one of my good friends got married, again, to the same person, 2 years after thier first wedding, because this one needed to be greek, for why i'm not sure; i got a dog, we named him Norton after Joshua Abraham Norton (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Joshua_Abraham_Norton);
was inevitably lied to so that the store i was going to buy got sold behind my back; throughout this whole time was working about 45 hours a week at a crap of a salary; and then as of this past friday i was laid off...........yeah...i think that's everything....but i also think that's enough.........so yeah......i hope that helps catch everyone up on what's the happenings of my life.......i shall be returning more often hopefully.....at least whenever i start this whole weekly writing posting...........till then....take care of yourselves and others around you......be well...peace.